One God Too Many
In reading a number of blogs and the comments coming back on them, I find that the people tend to fall into two groups. There are those that believe in the God of the Bible and those that don’t believe in God at all. Yes, there are some people in the middle (agnostics and others) and perhaps they tend not to speak out and there are really more of them than meets the eye.
Nevertheless, the dialogue is almost always about trying to prove the existence or the nonexistence of God. Now personally, I don’t believe that either position is provable. For starters, trying to prove the nonexistence of something seems to be a rather futile exercise. Actually most atheists that I know are extremely intelligent people (moralistic too by the way), so they try to explain the world around them in rational and intellectual terms; a flawed approach I must say for just how is man with his finite intelligence suppose to understand the cosmos and its infinite intelligence? But of course, what else is a person in that position suppose to do? When push comes to shove, though, I’m very sympathetic to the atheists’ arguments.
On the other extreme, we have people who believe in God steadfastly, and quote chapter and verse from the Bible. I’m okay with that too, although the part about everyone else burning in hell gets a little old sometimes. Having faith and believing that the Bible is the Word of God is a fine belief system. It just doesn’t constitute proof, especially when you say that the Bible is the Word of God because it says so. I can hear the atheists complaining about the circular reasoning right about now. Like I said, I’m sympathetic to their arguments.
But remember those people that I mentioned who were in the middle and you rarely hear from them? Well, you’re about to hear from one right now. I have reason to believe that there is another alternative. It’s based on faith and personal experience, as opposed to proof to be sure, but what else is a person in this position suppose to do anyway?
Now, I’ve always had some belief in God. For example, just as one can look at a painting and make certain observations about the painter, so too one can look at the wonder of nature and make certain assumptions about the Creator. But, my belief in God was very ill-defined for many years, and I seemed to like it just that way. However, a string of events forced me one day to admit that there was a higher intelligence at work in the universe. The only question for me then was how to define God, and by extension how to define myself.
One of the first synchronicities that occurred in my life was while I was in college studying, of all things, Freud. Now Freud had come up with this theory which has since formed the framework for psychology for the better part of the last 100 years; part of that theory he referred to as the super-ego. That started me thinking, an affliction that I have been unable to rid myself of. I wondered why couldn’t man exist simultaneously in more than one dimension. However, I really didn’t know what to do with that concept at that time.
Over the years, I struggled with the issue of how to define God. Part of my dilemma had to do with the Bible, which I had been researching for the better part of my life. What was a logical person to make of all the contradicting information about God in the Bible?
Before I could find the answer to that question, something truly remarkable happened. I was coming home from dinner one night with my wife and four year-old daughter, with my daughter sitting in the back seat of the car. The topic of conversation was about religion and at some point my daughter interjected that she knew everything about God. She proceeded to explain that God was invisible, wasn’t male or female but rather genderless and that you could pray to him. Oh yes, and God was love. Needless to say that both my wife and I were flabbergasted. Upon questioning, our daughter told us that she hadn’t simply overheard any of our conversations or even read it in a book. What she finally told us was as stunning as it was revealing. She said that this information “was God’s gift to her”. What is it that they say about “out of the mouths of babes”?
That got me to thinking again about God and the Bible. If God was love, then what about the God of the Old Testament – you know, the angry, jealous, fearful God that broke his own commandments. He didn’t exactly fit my vision of how God should be. Could it be that he wasn’t the god who created the heavens and the earth, but possibly just a lower god that only created man?
As I would later find out, my issue of trying to define God had perhaps been dealt with 2,000 years ago by a group referred to as the Gnostics, who were contributors to early Christian thought. This discovery confirmed for me my thinking that there was a hierarchy of gods with one God at the top of the pyramid, the first cause. The actual identity of the God of the Bible was not of much importance to me but there are sources that do speak about a lower creation god; for example, in the Gospel of Judas he is referred to as Ildabaoth.
The rest of the story is much too long for this blog, which is why I’m currently writing a book about it. But along the way, I’ve had some interesting finds in some rather interesting places; places like quantum physics. Scientists have delved into the world of sub-atomic particles and found something totally unexpected. What they discovered was an invisible world that serves as the foundation for our own reality. In this other reality, space and time do not exist and everything is part of the whole. With this information, I would then come to a better understanding of our multi-dimensional selves and to the realization that separation is merely an illusion.
Now, how does any of this relate to those still debating the existence of God? Well, I’m not sure that it does, at least not just yet for most people. My take on life is that it is a journey, a journey of self-discovery that has no beginning and no end. Accordingly as a true seeker, you should never stop looking for the truth. Socrates said it best when he said, “The only thing I know is that I know nothing at all”. Now exactly what was it that you thought that you knew about the existence or nonexistence of God?